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Flashback Friday — Back to the Future

I won't be dressed quite so fancy today ... but the cake will still be chocolate!

I won’t be dressed quite so fancy today … but the cake will still be chocolate!

1972, my sixth birthday. I can taste that cake just by looking at it — it is my standing order year after year.

And those crown-shaped candle holders sat on countless birthday cakes in our house .I think they were finally retired sometime ago.

The dress, too — I remember loving it, althought today I eschew stripes. No glasses yet, but already, I see my hair is short — Mom’s defense against my constant, confounded hair-twirling.

Although not an over-the-hill-milestone, today’s birthday feels like the start of a whole new chapter.

How much has changed in just a year.

Last Feb. 15, I wrote this.

And in a few days, if the darn weather will cooperate, I will meet the woman that letter is addressed to — putting a face to the countless years of wondering, and punctuating several long phone calls these past few weeks.

I’m caught in a vast swirl of conflicting and confusing emotions, many of them as childlike as the Terri depicted above:

Will she like me?

What is she like?

Does she have a sense of humor? What will she think of mine?

Will I like her?

What do I wear?!

About Terri S. Vanech

Wife, mother, communications specialist, Jazzercise instructor and recently reunited adoptee. I'm living out loud -- and trying to make it all work -- in midlife. Having a sense of humor sure helps.


16 thoughts on “Flashback Friday — Back to the Future

  1. I bet your neighbors are thrilled…

    Posted by John S. Pontillo | February 15, 2013, 9:12 pm
  2. And maybe you should wear your BAND uniform to lunch if you have nothing to wear.. But PLEASE leave the clarinet home…

    Posted by John S. Pontillo | February 15, 2013, 12:42 pm
  3. Happy Birthday Terri. This birthday is very special for you!! I’ll pray that all goes well and that all your questions are answered. A new chapter is about to begin. Can’t wait to hear and read about how it all turns out.

    Posted by Mike Colaluca | February 15, 2013, 12:35 pm
  4. Have a Happy Birthday and look out for that “kiss of mustard” on your birthday cake. Good luck at lunch on Monday. I bet you won’t eat a bite anyway..

    Posted by John S. Pontillo | February 15, 2013, 11:14 am
  5. Happy birthday! Wow, did you meet your birth mother last year?

    Posted by Marijane | February 15, 2013, 10:36 am
  6. Happy Birthday! But more importantly, congrats on the reunion. It is definitely a whirlwind of emotions. I was reunited almost 20 yrs ago. And there are still many times I feel childlike with my feelings/emotions! Good Luck, hang on cause it’s gonna be a roller coaster ride!

    Posted by Michelle | February 15, 2013, 10:04 am
  7. Happy Birthday! There are going to be so many spirits hovering over the table on Monday that you’ll think you need to order for a crowd. But we’ll all behave, and just shower you and Pat with love and good thoughts — and we promise not to drool on your lunch.

    I think we still have one of the crown candleholders! I know we have the wooden carousel animals, but think there’s a crown — if you want a memory!

    Posted by Karen Waggoner | February 15, 2013, 8:59 am
  8. And we will all be there with you surrounding you both with our love and joy.

    Posted by Priscilla Sharp | February 15, 2013, 8:20 am

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