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Yes, Catherine, there is a Santa Claus

Several friends with younger children have been on Facebook these past few days, pleading with other parents to help keep the Christmas magic alive. It seems there is another holiday tradition at work: The older kids are spilling the beans at school about Santa, the Myth and Legend. 

I don’t remember exactly when I realized how the Santa thing really worked in my childhood home, but I’m pretty sure I kept mum for a bit, for my sister’s sake. Would that I had followed the same plan where Catherine was concerned. 

So for all those moms and dads working so hard to keep Santa in Christmas, I repeat here a post from 2011. Judge me if you must.

One of the great things about being a parent is a chance to reconnect with your own childhood –something Basil and I do with gusto at this time of year.

Playing Santa is perhaps a parent’s biggest pleasure — even when the kid would rather play with the box than the present in it, as Catherine did many, many times.

Catherine -- probably age 7 (I REALLY need to make those photo albums) -- getting ready for Santa's arrival.

Catherine — probably age 7 (I REALLY need to make those photo albums) — getting ready for Santa’s arrival.

When she was little, we did all the typical Santa things:

  • Took her to see the big guy for photos (she didn’t cry, but her stunned expression is forever immortalized in one of the few photo albums I have actually found the time to put together.)
  • Put out cookies — and carrots! — on Christmas Eve. Eating the cookies was no big deal, but remembering to take reindeer-sized bites out of the carrots and strew them on the front lawn required a little extra attention in the wee hours.
  • Arranged for letters from Santa to be written to her after she sent her (overlong) wish lists.
  • Hung the stockings and took the pictures.
  • Read “Twas the Night Before Christmas” and “Mr. Willoughby’s Christmas Tree.” Every year, without fail.
  • Logged on to the Norad site to see where Santa was and whether he was near.

We added our own touches, too.

Santa always left something new not just under the tree, but by Catherine’s bedside, too. Slippers, usually, and a candy cane.

Our shining Santa moment, however, was the year we glued glow-in-the-dark stars to her bedroom ceiling while she slept.

She was about 4, and I can only imagine how very comical it would have been to watch me and Basil climbing up the step stool to affix these things while she slept. Every sigh and movement she made sent us scurrying from the room only to tiptoe back.

Morning brought high excitement. Santa had given her the moon and the stars.

Indeed, St. Nick was an enormous presence in our house.

So, what I’m about to confess may scandalize you. Avert your eyes if you must; read on if you want to feel better about your own parenting skills.

When Catherine was 9 and 10 years old, she kept asking if Santa was real. She repeated her query every few weeks for months on end. And I always answered the same way: “What do you think?”

We parsed the details — How did he get through the skylight? Why didn’t she hear him? The cookies would be gone in the morning and the carrots were always eaten. She always got some of what she asked for.

In my heart I knew she already knew the answer. The word must have gotten out at school, and she didn’t have a younger sibling for whom to keep the dream alive. After about a year of on-and-off questioning, I changed my reply to: “Do you really want to know the answer?”

Several times she told me she did. So I gave her the truth as I remembered my Dad explaining to me: Mom and Dad play Santa, but he is bigger than any two people. All of us together keep his giving spirit alive and now that she was a big girl, she could help, too.

This did not go as planned.

I grossly underestimated the impact of the news I thought she merely wanted confirmed.

She sobbed for a good long time. I felt like crap, and it is one of a very few times that easy-going Basil really read me the riot act.

I had a long string of “mother of the year” moments to my credit — spilling a month-old Catherine out of the stroller at Tod’s Point, slamming her chubby little fingers in the door jamb, not believing her when she claimed illness — but this one took the cake.

Yes, I am the mother who told her child Santa wasn’t real.

It seemed right at the time — she surely knew the answer or wouldn’t have kept asking.

Still, I wished for a do-over.

Moreover, while I know that no red-suited guy makes his way through the skylight on Dec. 24, I do believe. And I want Catherine to embrace that spirit of hope and goodwill, too.

Amid the stress and angst, this time of year can bring out our best selves if we let it. For every lunatic fighting for the last Xbox, there are enormous numbers of people doing kind and generous things, offering love, comfort and support to others. The trick is in striving to “keep Christmas all the year” as Dickens had Scrooge learn to do.

That’s our focus now, and Catherine is happy to “play Santa” — remembering kids who aren’t as lucky as she, buying and wrapping surprises for Dad and her grandparents, helping deliver sweets to our friends.

She hasn’t given up writing her wish list (it’s very detailed, natch), and come Saturday night, she’ll still set out a plate of cookies.

But before heading up to bed, she’ll wrap the last few presents and stuff a couple of stockings.

After all, Santa can’t do the whole job by himself.

About Terri S. Vanech

Wife, mother, communications specialist, Jazzercise instructor and recently reunited adoptee. I'm living out loud -- and trying to make it all work -- in midlife. Having a sense of humor sure helps.


3 thoughts on “Yes, Catherine, there is a Santa Claus

  1. When our oldest came home and told me that he knew Santa wasn’t real, we had a long talk about the magic of Christmas, and the fun of believing. He thought for a bit, and told me he wouldn’t tell his brother and sister that Santa wasn’t real. A few days later, he asked me for some quilt batting and fabric. He had me help him cut out and sew a Santa hat. Just before Christmas, he put on his red bathrobe, the hat, and attached the beard he had made to his face with tape. He rang the doorbell, and “Santa” came to visit our house. He never did tell his siblings.

    Posted by Karen Waggoner | December 4, 2014, 10:25 am
  2. What a wonderful piece Terri. Believing in the magic of the season is a gift you passed along to your daughter, despite spilling the beans about Jolly Old Nick! It is a sad day for us parents when our children learn the truth but I would say that your Catherine has never stopped believing!

    Posted by Lynn | December 4, 2014, 9:27 am
  3. I did the same thing and blew it with the Tooth Fairy, so when the Santa question came up, I always answered that I believe in Santa. And now that my kids are 17 and 20 I still believe in Santa 🙂

    Posted by Carol | December 4, 2014, 8:06 am

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